It’s been one of those days, one of those weeks, one of those years where everything seems to come crashing down and you can’t seem to find a way to pull yourself together. You’ve lost your PEACE.
However you lost it, whether it be because of family issues, work/business issues, or you just lost it, your desire is to just get that peace back that you’ve lost.
I remember a few years back when I was completely gone, lost, and ready to just call it quits in a sense and crawl under the covers in my bed and just let life pass me by.
I had a terrible breakup, my job was going into the toilet, and I was suffering from “empty nest” syndrome since my boys had left for college. I was alone. Literally. My friends tried to take me out and make me laugh. I tried to go to church to find peace, but it wasn’t there.
While I believe I am a good Catholic woman, I needed something more. More than what I was getting. I was on a mission. A mission seeking peace. The traditional methods weren’t working for me, and I soon discovered that I had put my mask back on that I had taken off years prior, trying to avoid the million and one questions of “How are you doing?”
The question you most hate being asked because, in all honesty, you know damn well, you’re not doing fine, but you tell people you are doing fine and even exaggerate that you’re doing great to avoid the question again.
So, when I finally recognized that things weren’t going to get better for me with the way my thinking was going, I needed to find another way to find peace.
Often, we turn to our closest friends and family thinking they may be the answer to our internal peace, when in fact, they could be the very reason you don’t have peace. So, now what?
I started looking within myself. How did you do that? You’re probably asking yourself, as that is why I didn’t have peace. My insides were all jumbled up. But were they really? Wasn’t it the forces outside of me causing me to lose my internal peace?
We think losing our peace of mind is from within, but if you really think about at it, what is actually causing you to lose it?
There is an old Earth, Wind & Fire song called “Fantasy.”
As I listened to the lyrics, it hit me.
Every man has a place, in his heart there's a space,
And the world can't erase his fantasies
Take a ride in the sky, on our ship fantasii
All your dreams will come true, right away
What dreams do I have that I want to come true? What can I do to make them happen?
Every thought is a dream, rushing by in a stream,
Bringing life to our kingdom of doing
What am I doing to turn my fantasies/dreams into realities?
Loving life, a new decree,
Bring your mind to everlasting liberty...
You will find, other kind, that has been in search for you,
Many lives has brought you to
Recognize it's your life, now in review...
As you glide, in your stride with the wind, as you fly away
Give a smile, from your lips, and say
I am free, yes I'm free, now I'm on my way
With those words, I started looking and thinking “outside the box” for how I was going to find peace again within my life and once and for all, how to find a way to keep it there.
I was always a self-help book guru, so I started reviewing my notes from all the books I read, and I started slowly to implement change in my life. I started working out even more, and I decided to look into yoga and meditation. Things that at that time seemed like a waste of my time.
“I don’t have time to sit in a room saying OMMM and trying to quiet my mind. It wasn’t going to happen.” Well, it did. I attended a weekend retreat that not only taught me yoga but also helped me to quiet my mind. It allowed me to empty myself of all that was hurting and or hindering me from my internal peace. Before, I would never have thought about going to something like this. Remember, I was on a mission.
I started keeping a journal of my daily activities, and I started making a concise effort in finding things that were positive in my day. I paid attention to the images in the clouds that are different every day.
I took an interest in nature and would sit outside and just listen. Something I had never done before. I was quiet and at PEACE. It was a totally new and refreshing way at looking at things.
I took time for myself to discover what I really wanted, and what was going to bring me peace of mind, and it took me to looking “outside the box” to find it.
Sometimes, we are so afraid of the unknown, or of things we don’t understand, that we don’t go beyond what we know or what we were taught, to find what we are looking for.
I don’t know about you, but I got tired of my friends and family telling me what they thought I should do instead of really spending time with me and finding out what made me happy.
Your peace is all that matters, and however you need to find it, and in whatever manner you need to find it, do yourself a favor, and find it.